When I was just 6 or 7, we would spend long frozen days during winter school breaks on
Now I am here again with my dear cousins and as dusk becomes inky night we are dancing with flashlights as mics, belting out the words to other 70s tunes. We are rising before the sun to all of us float our kayaks out to the middle of the lake to watch the sun rise. We are eating each other’s food and scolding each other’s children and sitting silently in the sun, our eyes on a book, relishing being simply there together.
From the minute the sun rises they are off, catching frogs and minnows, playing imaginary games, and board games, and hide and seek, fishing and sneaking treats when they think we aren’t looking.
Each night, Max whispers the same thing to me as he drifts off to sleep. I wish we lived here Mama he says. I know what he is craving—the long lazy days filled with people who love you…no matter.
51 weeks will go by between this week and the next. We will leave with the best of intentions—to keep in touch, to trade emails, to visit. We will have plans of weekend trips we will take together—of meeting halfway between. But the hustle and bustle of our lives will overtake us all. We won’t hear from each other at all but then before we know it I will be on the road to
“Meg…Its Kevin. We are at on the highway, crossing over into
And my heart will relax into a way of being that is only possibly in the presence of one’s cousins. And I will say, under my breath…I am there Kev…I am always there. My heart is just a beat away from this.